Time for
a personal confession. I am addicted to silence. Not the prolonged silence as
in that silent movie of the silent monks, but an instant silence in which the
juxtaposition between sounds, meanings, thoughts, sentences, even words is a
space seemingly of a nothingness, not even pregnant with potential. In that
silent space is just space, a space where no thing, no name, no idea, no
construct, no piece, no particular, no chunk, lump, icon or lunkhead is to be
found. Yet even then (as quantum leaps in our comprehension proves) space teems
with the tiniest of unseen particles. Such is the synchrony within the
interstices of the canvas of mankind, let alone the warp and weave of mankind's
universe. When we hold a cloth up to the light there are spaces amongst the
weave; so too through the leaves of a tree. A microscope shows organisms
crawling in their own prison of space. Think of an atom and then a quirk or
quark; we can scarcely envision it but surrounded by space. And being in touch
with such emptiness, for me, is a sense of breath-taking. Listen if you will to
Poe's Fall of The House of Usher in the Alan Parsons Project album. When the
engorging music reaches a discordance so profound as to stir the sensibility of
a climax, there is ... Silence. I've never timed it. I wish to bring no math to
such exquisite nothingness. And among all the genres of my music collection
there is not one note so pure and captivating, for me, as that isolated moment
of utter silence.
Things
intrude. We are naturally involved with things. Even thoughts. Things
ourselves, we prefer this shape to that shape, this size to that size, this
color to that colour, and this spelling to that spelling. We grow up to
recognize bad things from safe things, and safer things from badder things. We
become selective. We hate. We love. We like. We dislike. We get addicted. We
get attached. We do not care. We are naturally human. And we are stirred by
what we feel, what we think, what we see, touch, taste, smell, hear. Well,
obviously. But what is difficult for us to accept is that someone else may like
or even love the things that we don't, in particular when it comes to values. A
tribe who eats their elders as a matter of course, let alone abandons them as a
matter of tradition, is an anathema to us. And all that we have innately
registered as that which we ourselves are, in feeling, thought, sensibility,
acceptable standards and value is very difficult now for us to bend or to move
too far away from, for fear, as Tevye put it, that we shall break.
I really
do not like seeing the word 'lamb' in a restaurant; I've cuddled some up in the
crook of my arms. So too for a piglet, and a calf, and a chicken. Why not eat a
pony, a puppy, or a kitten? And how about a... Where do we draw the line?
Naturally, we draw lines. Some people never buy a Dodge. Some people would not
thank you for a... We have preferences. It is the degree of our inability to
overcome a standard of practiced belief that determines how easily integrative
we are. As the saying goes: One can tell the measure of a man by what gets his
goat. So some of us prefer not to eat meat, but if you serve it we shall eat,
and be grateful for the present. But what if you like to serve boiled orphans?
Then we must make a choice and draw a line, and create conditions around such a
practice that curtails, contains and if necessary cauterizes the thing that
would harm others. Sophistication has it that we do not harm others, that we do
not kill, harm creatures, and so on down the slippery slope of contentions
until we do not even pull out the carrot. Where does one the draw the line?
When do we allow everything just to be, in the spaces between silence, as a
participant? Now, is this a 'modest proposal', or does one need a Swiftian
kick? Hm? Shush now. Shush. Who do you think you are?
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